Weeks' update!

For this week’s recap, I’ll start with school…

I started school this last week and it was totally amazing! I love all my classes and my teachers are all so passionate and enthusiastic so it’s easy to want to learn. Work has been easy and I’ve been able to accomplish a lot of home work while I’m on the job (ya, God has really blessed me a lot!!).

Monday night was our Kick off Pizza and Vision at church. We got together for the first time since last spring and strategized for the Rally. Basically, our church is full of a bunch of little home groups or groups of people who meet at houses throughout the week. We do it that way so that relationships can be built easier and so that discipleship (or helping others to become more like Christ) can happen more fluidly. Every year we have a “Pizza and Vision” night to have pizza and talk about what we envision the semester and year to look like. 

Our group talked about how we really hope that our relationships will deepen and that we learn to share ourselves with each other for the purpose of building group intimacy.

I was so excited because I have wanted to feel that kind of connection with my church group for a long time! 

I have been close with people within my church, but haven’t felt engrained in it. I have hungered for a deeper intimacy within my friendships and I’ve craved friends who are willing to challenge me and call me out and be examples of the types of people whom I’d like to model myself after. I want to see other people live out qualities that I would like to develop and I want to do the same for others. I believe that this year, I’ll receive that :D

On Tuesday we had the Rally for A&M Christian Fellowship and that was a lot of fun! I’ve never actually been to a Rally for AMCF, so I was glad to finally be a part of it!

Wednesday I worked at the LaQuinta and it was actually one of the easiest nights I’ve had since I started the job in July. We have a new GM and he’s really good. He’s been setting a higher standard for all of us and I think that’s building moral and also boosting the customer satisfaction (which in turn makes happier employees who don’t get yelled at as often… it’s nice).

I think I worked on Thursday… but strangely I can’t remember what I was doing… I can’t remember so bad I’m looking at my calendar.. yikes… I know that is inaccurate information. I am pretty sure I worked.

Friday was so much fun! I woke up and went to Sundance (a therapeutic riding center that I volunteer at). I cleaned and organized the tack room and the tack and then cleaned out some stalls. I was in horse heaven!!

That afternoon, I worked and then went to see Brian Regan at First Yell. I went alone, but I didn’t care because he was so stinkin’ funny! I laughed so hard I thought I would wet my pants. I also really enjoyed watching all the Aggie groups perform! We have so many talented people! I am so proud and thankful to be an Aggie! After yell, I came home and had the house to myself so I sang for like 3 hours. I love to sing! I really should get over the fear of doing it publically.

I went to our home group party on Saturday which was Luau themed. I haven’t been to such a fun party in way longer than I can remember. We had coconuts to drink out of, build your own shish kabobs, deserts galore, games, and leis to wear. I felt like everyone there was very easy and enjoyable to talk with!

After the party, I met up with my old home group and we went to my first Midnight Yell! I didn’t think I would like it, but I got there and was absorbed by the Aggies! I felt like I picked up the yells pretty easily and enjoyed being a part of the Aggie body! It was so exhilarating to be there. I’ve been full of praise all day because I’m realizing how fortunate I am to be in such an amazing school! I’m overwhelmed by how God has blessed me and am in awe of His gifts! I really don’t feel like I deserve to be here and just seeing things like the First Yell and the Midnight yell and learning more about so many traditions has opened my eyes to see what a deep rooted history my school has! I think it’s such a privilege to know that I will be a part of the Aggie legacy.

Church was on Sunday and I have to admit, I was not in the mood to get up. I was so excited to have experienced midnight yell, that I could not sleep all night. I’ve been tired and sick feeling all day. I’m wiped out. I feel like a baby. I might sleep in tomorrow, even though I have a big week planned.

I was actually really excited to be at church. This is rare for me. I usually don’t like being there and don’t feel comfortable there. I get anxiety about it. I think I’m scared of people judging me. I don’t like church politics and I’m afraid that I’ll let people down… so it’s easier to avoid them sometimes. I know that’s not true, but my heart struggles to let the lies go sometimes.

After church, I worked out (which I actually do every day, but for today it was one of the highlights of my day) and then went to work. I did some home work at work, but overall felt unproductive and am a little disappointed about it.

Although I was super social last week, I’d really like to tone it down a little bit because I feel like I’m going at a pace that I can’t sustain for long. I’m getting more and more tired. I’d like to focus a bit more on God this week too. I really enjoy the times when I can sing to Him or when I can journal with Him. I write down things that I hear Him say to me and my heart is strengthened and encouraged. I haven’t done that in way to long and although, I’m very content socially, I’m not very content with the intimacy between God and I right now.

It’s funny how you can fill your time with friends and play hard all day and constantly be having fun, but still feel a void… like something is missing. I’d rather sacrifice some of the time I’m spending having so much fun with other people and apply a little bit of it to relaxing with my God. I miss Him, and I’m in love. Only He can ever really know me and in Him and because of him, I can know myself more clearly. He just makes sense of it all you know?

I also want to spend some time learning how to play the guitar. I think I will start by trying to play it on Mondays. Tomorrow is Monday, so wish me luck ;-)

Stay tuned for next weeks update and more blogs ;-) (that is, if I’m any good at this… it might fizzle out).