I woke up today at 11:02am. I left my phone at the grocery store last night and had no alarm. This was the first day in over two weeks that I woke up feeling rested. My heart is so whole. 

I haven't done anything productive except make coffee, start a load of laundry, and eat french toast. 

The sun is out and the heat is comfortable. 

If I were a wild horse, I wouldn't be any more free than I am in this moment. 

I miss this feeling. It's the same feeling you used to feel on Saturday morning before your parents woke up. I remember waking up, laying in front of the tv and watching cartoons. Then whenever I felt like it, I'd eat breakfast and play the day away. There were no appointments, no business clothes, no assignments, no pressure to act or be a certain way. I just was. And I was so happy! 

Just as I write, Frank Sanatra's Young at Heart began playing on my Pandora station. It's Michael Bublee day on Pandora you know. 

I miss life always being so free. Of course, I love the challenge of accomplishing and growing and making things happen. I’m thankful for pockets of time where I may escape from “the real” world and into my special neverland where this magical relaxation never ceases to happen.

I’m so blessed and grateful for this opportunity in the middle of test season to escape the stress, escape the fear, escape anxiety, escape pretending to be smart, and escape actually being smart. Here in this place, I’m free, innocent, content, joyful Courtney.

If my life were a movie I would think this would be a muted out part accompanied by some bitter sweet song like, “Somewhere Over the Rainbow” and I’d be in slow motion…. Mmm. I like that thought.

Outside, I can see the blue bird chasing some other birds. This is just a fabulous day! I love not having a phone! 

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