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Spring rocked and I finished well...
Summer was long and boring. I spent it working and taking Sign Language 1 & 2...
I really enjoyed learning to sign! I hope to continue learning over the next year. I met a man through the class who ended up giving me all the materials I need to complete the 3rd and 4th course at home! He also gave me a 55 gallon fish tank complete with a pump, fish tank decor, and fish. I find the tank so soothing.
Another interesting thing that happened this summer was that I became a mother. I was sitting outside of the SCC when it happened. I was talking with the supervisor outside when I heard rustling in the bushes. I looked down to find a baby kitten. My supervisor suggestion I keep it but I said, "No, that would be irresponsible." The group playing frisbee golf that came by suggested I keep it. I said, "No, that would be irresponsible." A guy in the group said it was a gift from God and I really should keep it. I replied, "If this kitten is a gift from God, it'll follow me home and I'll keep it."
That night as I was setting up the new litter box, make shift cat bed, and fancy feast dinner in the guest bathroom down stairs, I really wondered if it was all just circumstance. I prayed, "God, I'd love a kitten but I really don't think I can afford it. I'm going to take it to the vet tomorrow to see if I can adopt it out. If you want me to have this cat, then give it to me... if not, then please bless it's little life."
I spent 4 hours the next day going from vet to vet only to be told, "Wow! You should keep that cat! Ya'll have great chemistry." and "We don't take cats, wouldn't you make a good match for her?" I put an ad on Craigslist with no luck. A friend came by to look at her only to say, "You know, I love this cat but I don't think she is for me... you should keep her!"
I spent 4 hours the next day going from vet to vet only to be told, "Wow! You should keep that cat! Ya'll have great chemistry." and "We don't take cats, wouldn't you make a good match for her?" I put an ad on Craigslist with no luck. A friend came by to look at her only to say, "You know, I love this cat but I don't think she is for me... you should keep her!"
Finally, my friend Christine picked her up and dropped her off at AFCAT (Aggie Ferrell Cat Association at TAMU). She went by my house when I was at work. I was sad to know the kitten wouldn't be there when I got back, but felt responsible for doing the right thing.
An hour or so later Christine called me. She told me that the vet techs remembered me and the cat and that she and the techs all agreed that the cat and I had an undeniable chemistry. I explained that I really couldn't afford to spay and vaccinate the cat. She said, "Would you be upset if I pay for the cat to be spayed and vaccinated for an early birthday present for you?" I burst into tears of joy! I couldn't believe that after all that trying to get rid of the cat she would really be mine. I took it as a confirmation that God was blessing me with a pet and I rejoiced!
I wanted to name the cat something feminine, soft, and sweet. I searched for names that meant, "God's Gift" and settled on Dolly....
An hour or so later Christine called me. She told me that the vet techs remembered me and the cat and that she and the techs all agreed that the cat and I had an undeniable chemistry. I explained that I really couldn't afford to spay and vaccinate the cat. She said, "Would you be upset if I pay for the cat to be spayed and vaccinated for an early birthday present for you?" I burst into tears of joy! I couldn't believe that after all that trying to get rid of the cat she would really be mine. I took it as a confirmation that God was blessing me with a pet and I rejoiced!
I wanted to name the cat something feminine, soft, and sweet. I searched for names that meant, "God's Gift" and settled on Dolly....
This cat is so perfect for me! She is a very emotional cat and loves attention. She is vocal and follows me wherever I go. She loves riding in cars and plays very gently. She so so sweet. I am also fortunate because I can leave her all day and not feel guilty about it. I also think that if my dreams come true and I become a flight attendant, she will be able to handle me traveling.
All summer I lived with a girl who I really didn't get along with (although, I think she didn't like me more than I didn't like her... but that's ok). I was so grateful when I moved out and into my own apartment.
Living alone has been a welcomed change. I can walk around naked whenever I want, I can sing loudly at night or anytime, I can be messy or as clean as I want, and it gives me a chance to really be alone. Something about the loneliness of being alone really draws me to the Lord.
I'm always amazed how I can feel as though nothing is happening in my walk with Christ... only to look back and realize that I've traveled miles away from where I started. That has how this summer has been. It's like setting sail on an open sea. I can only see a vast endless sea in front of me... but when I gaze in the direction from where I came, I realize that the land I once called home becomes nothing but a small spec in the distance.
My heart is filled with hopes for my upcoming and final semester at A&M. I am more than thankful to be ending my undergraduate career, but there's a bittersweet longing inside of me that whispers, "Wait... I'm not ready." I don't put my security in my accomplishments or in my hopes for the future, I place my security in the Lord who is the compass of my life.
Lord, where will we go next?
My heart is filled with hopes for my upcoming and final semester at A&M. I am more than thankful to be ending my undergraduate career, but there's a bittersweet longing inside of me that whispers, "Wait... I'm not ready." I don't put my security in my accomplishments or in my hopes for the future, I place my security in the Lord who is the compass of my life.
Lord, where will we go next?
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